Jensen Elias Barrett was born on Christmas night at 11:05pm. Zach and I are overjoyed that he is here, and the love we have for our son grows each day. While giving birth to a child was far more intense than I ever could have prepared for, I am amazed that God gave me the strength to get through it. Going through pregnancy and giving birth was such a humbling experience. I’ve never felt more weak in my entire life, and it just reminded me how much I need God. Parenting a newborn, no matter how much babysitting practice you have in your past, is so sacrificial and challenging. This child is dependent on me for nutrition, life, and love–I am dependent on God for the same things.
I am beyond blessed to have Jensen and my husband in my life. I could go on and on about how amazing Zach has been through everything. He is such a wonderful husband, friend, and father. I can’t wait to see Jensen grow up to be just like his daddy. May he have the same strength, patience, and confidence that Zach has.
For those of you that may not know, Zach had to leave for a deployment one week after Jensen was born with the National Guard. While this season was already going to be difficult, this adds a new complexity to our lives. I am committed to sending updates to Zach about our little man. He better be ready for all the photos coming his way. I will miss my soldier so much, but I know we will get through this just fine–just like I got through labor. It might be painful at times, seem hopeless, and seem to drag on for so long, but I know that getting through this will only bring our family closer together. I am so excited for all that this year will bring. I could not have had better guys by my side for Christmas and the new year. Until we can be together again, I will cherish each and every one of the photos.
To my sweet son, your father and I love you so much. We’ve dreamed of you for years, and you are more perfect than we could have ever imagined. I promise to raise you with all the love I can give and cling to our Lord when I fail you. Your daddy and I are praying for you every day, and we can’t wait to see the man you become one day. For now, we are soaking up every moment and milestone with you in any way we can.